the blues.

Not very good with this wedding blog thingamajig eh? Hahaha.Wanted to blog about our anniversary and his birthday but always sidetracked by Twitter and FB and I decided not to cos life has not been dandy for me.

My grandmother had a stroke recently and I was an emotional wreck. I'm not really close with the extended family but my heart shattered into pieces seeing her that way. Didn't imagine that 1 night could really make a difference. I really wonder if she's gonna be at my wedding. I don't really wanna think about it but I'm praying that she would be able to see me naik pelamin. :'( I wish the wedding could be a bit sooner but I guess not...we'll see how.

This whole wedding talk is really taking a toll on me. Really really feeling the pressure. Went through this phase of being fickle and unsure. I'm sure it's the Post Engagement blues. I took me quite a while to snap out of it and sometimes I think I'm still feeling it. My wedding is still a looooong way to go but my Fiance always reminds me that it's gonna be 2012 soon, then 2013, then the wedding. THANKS.

To add to my misery, I worry about my finances all the damn time. Thinking about my career options, this and that. Omg, it never ends. Guess I'm uptight about such stuff. Plans are never concrete. I'm thankful that he has been super nice about things. It's true when people say that the engagement period is the hardest to go through. OMG IT'S SO TRUE. Nothing seems right, it's always about "How about ME?" but I believe compromising helps.


Quoted from Miss H

Turning from 1, to 1.5 to 2 is a long drawn tiring process which does bear wonderful rewards if you put in the effort to see it through. My advice? Don’t despair, don’t give up and never say “I am tired”.

It's ok to go though phases. I'll get through this.