I can Dukan

Any of you did NOT gain weight during the festive season? If you didn't gain weight, you're damn lucky! 

Think I gained a bit of weight indulging in all those rendang, ayam masak merah and whatnot. I lost a bit of weight during the fasting month only to gain back. Bagos ah.

I've always had issues with my weight. I think I gained weight massively in 2005 when I tried to quit smoking but lost a bit of weight when I was on job training at H/T/A in 2009. My weight keeps going up and down and I was never the skinny sort and it really doesn't help that I'm top heavy. 

Think I've tried a few things to help me lose weight. Tried Duromine once and it made me lose weight so fast but I was bitchy, tired and constantly thirsty! I was terribly sick and had to go on sick leave so many times (like it's a bad thing eh? hehe). The last straw was when I had heart palpitations! I decided to stop taking the pills and my weight shot up! GAHHH. 

Left: Last November; 66kg 

Right: One week ago during raya; 60kg

Have been exercising and watching my diet since January and I've lost some weight. I was 67kg at my heaviest and now I am 60kg. I did zumbabi , jogged and eat clean. Sometimes I PHAIL in this eating clean thingy, I'll over indulge and feel terribly guilty after that.  

What my relative said to me during raya did not make things any better. She said that I have to be "thin or else nanti pelamin roboh." Bitchy hor? I am SO SICK of them talking about my weight. It's always "Oh, you're fat, lose weight. Kau kurus lagi lawa...kau dah naik badan blah blah blah." Tak pernah cakap benda baik, selalu kene comment orang kurus ke gemok. And people wonder why I grew up with weight issues.

Anyway I would like to lose more weight and since the wedding is in a few months, I'm gonna kick it up a notch. After much convincing by Yaya, I decided to go on the Dukan diet! I had my reservations about this but wtheck, just try lah. Ok here's a little introduction to the Dukan diet...

Hahahaha, just google Dukan diet and you will somehow get what the Dukan diet is all about lah. Basically you eliminate carbs until you get to the Consolidation phase and reintroduce the carbs back but not too much. I am willing to commit to this diet and I gotta thank Yaya for the motivation. She is on this diet as well and I am so glad to have a friend who can motivate and guide me through this! *fistpump* We went Dukan grocery shopping and quite sad that I have to eliminate a lot of food but IT'S OK, nak kurus kan!

 OMG NO BAGEDIL AND BUBBLE TEA HOWWWWW? :<

Ok so I am gonna start tomorrow- 19/8/2013 (Monday). I have to be on the Attack phase for 3 days. That's 3 days of Pure protein food. Oh boy, I am gonna be so happy to eat vegetables on Thursday! HAHAHA and then I'll move to the Cruise phase where I can eat veges and protein. Dah macam rabbit! I'll try my best to commit to this. Maybe I'll update this Dukan diet thingy on a daily basis, if tak malas! Apart from the diet, I'm gonna Zumba, jog and walk more. 

Hope I am disciplined enough to endure this diet, wish me luck! :)

Panic Manic

WOOHOO!

Finally have time to update this berkeladak blog. I am so bad at this!

Nope, I am still not married, lama lagi...lagi 104 days! HAHAHAHA. I think I'm in denial about everything. A lot of people are asking me about my preps, "Hows your preps? Dah ready? semua dah ok?"

STAHP. Just stop asking. Unless you're one of my bridesmaids or my friend, please don't ask too much. I appreciate your concern but it's very stressful. Oh, before I forget...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA! MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN! If I offended anyone unintentionally or intentionally (haha!), so sorry, next year raya boleh mintak maaf lagi Insyallah. :D

Anyways, back to my story. People have been asking me about my wedding preps...lagi lagi bila time raya. I will just nod and say "Yes, semua dah ready" but the truth is, I don't even know what I'm (not) doing. I'm doing this alone (you can never depend on men, can you?) and it seems like everyone who is getting married  around my time is preparing like mad! Ade yang dah take pre wedding photos, dah go makeup trial, dah DIY bunga, dah ini dah itu...I'm not even done with anything.

Of course I booked all the vendors already lah but that's just it. I don't even know if my braces are gonna be off by November. My dentist said that I might still have to keep the bottom braces. :( That means I cannot take my pre wedding photos because I refuse to have gigi besi in photos that I might show my kids in the future hahahaha. Think my mom is kinda glad, dia siang siang dah veto pre wedding photoshoot but...hehehehe. I think it's ok ah, tak yah peluk peluk pe. Masing masing lah eh.

Still struggling to save money, think we might have to postpone the honeymoon also. Sigh. Takpe lah, save a bit more maybe can go a bit jauh like Europe or USA. Kalau nak sangat, pergi je staycation.

We're thinking of Boracay for our honeymoon though! Hopefully enough rezeki! So happy that TR now has a straight flight to Boracay! Baik ah. My colleague actually helped me researched about Boracay, so nice. It doesn't seem too expensive, so hopefully we don't have to postpone ah.

Kahwin ni banyak pakai duit ah. I'm not even throwing an event at a swanky 5 star hotel or what lah. Biasa biasa je- so kids, dengar cakap akak ye, kalau nak kahwin, pergi simpan duit.

Sometimes I feel sad. Sad that I won't get my ~dream~ wedding due to certain constraints. Occasionally I will read blogs and see things that I can't afford to have for my wedding and I will feel down but I tell myself it's ok cos that's their rezeki and my rezeki might come in different forms. I'm sure most of us envisioned the perfect wedding but gotta live with what we have..:)

Oh oh, Chinta Weddings dah call suroh go fitting!!! I am SO EXCITED! Cannot wait to meet Kak Suraya for selection and measurements. I can't wait to meet my mak andam too!!! I asked for a change of mak andam. I initailly chose Lily to be my mak andam but now I am asking for Lynn Salleh instead. That's because I LOVE HER MAKEUP and she's my colleague's wife. So I feel a bit safe with her? But I love Lily's makeup too! If I can't get Lynn Salleh, I'll stick to Lily!

 Makeup by Lily

Makeup by Lynn Salleh

I am very particular about eyebrows. When I was choosing my mak andam dulu, I always scrutinise the pengantin's eyebrows. Eyebrows frame the face and I like it just nice- not too thick and not too thin. If gradient eyebrows lagi I like~ Macam Pala Foxxia. Tapi dia bukan mak andam ye hahahahahaha.

Anyway, I am panicking because I have not hit my targeted weight! I lost weight but it's not enough and I think I need to lose more. I have to admit that I am more obsessed with losing weight rather than the details of my wedding. I've been on a diet since January and been seeing improvements but I am still not satisfied. The upcoming bridal fitting lagi makes me kancheong.

Gonna try another diet and I hope I am able to commit. That topic...in another entry.