Panic Manic

WOOHOO!

Finally have time to update this berkeladak blog. I am so bad at this!

Nope, I am still not married, lama lagi...lagi 104 days! HAHAHAHA. I think I'm in denial about everything. A lot of people are asking me about my preps, "Hows your preps? Dah ready? semua dah ok?"

STAHP. Just stop asking. Unless you're one of my bridesmaids or my friend, please don't ask too much. I appreciate your concern but it's very stressful. Oh, before I forget...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA! MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN! If I offended anyone unintentionally or intentionally (haha!), so sorry, next year raya boleh mintak maaf lagi Insyallah. :D

Anyways, back to my story. People have been asking me about my wedding preps...lagi lagi bila time raya. I will just nod and say "Yes, semua dah ready" but the truth is, I don't even know what I'm (not) doing. I'm doing this alone (you can never depend on men, can you?) and it seems like everyone who is getting married  around my time is preparing like mad! Ade yang dah take pre wedding photos, dah go makeup trial, dah DIY bunga, dah ini dah itu...I'm not even done with anything.

Of course I booked all the vendors already lah but that's just it. I don't even know if my braces are gonna be off by November. My dentist said that I might still have to keep the bottom braces. :( That means I cannot take my pre wedding photos because I refuse to have gigi besi in photos that I might show my kids in the future hahahaha. Think my mom is kinda glad, dia siang siang dah veto pre wedding photoshoot but...hehehehe. I think it's ok ah, tak yah peluk peluk pe. Masing masing lah eh.

Still struggling to save money, think we might have to postpone the honeymoon also. Sigh. Takpe lah, save a bit more maybe can go a bit jauh like Europe or USA. Kalau nak sangat, pergi je staycation.

We're thinking of Boracay for our honeymoon though! Hopefully enough rezeki! So happy that TR now has a straight flight to Boracay! Baik ah. My colleague actually helped me researched about Boracay, so nice. It doesn't seem too expensive, so hopefully we don't have to postpone ah.

Kahwin ni banyak pakai duit ah. I'm not even throwing an event at a swanky 5 star hotel or what lah. Biasa biasa je- so kids, dengar cakap akak ye, kalau nak kahwin, pergi simpan duit.

Sometimes I feel sad. Sad that I won't get my ~dream~ wedding due to certain constraints. Occasionally I will read blogs and see things that I can't afford to have for my wedding and I will feel down but I tell myself it's ok cos that's their rezeki and my rezeki might come in different forms. I'm sure most of us envisioned the perfect wedding but gotta live with what we have..:)

Oh oh, Chinta Weddings dah call suroh go fitting!!! I am SO EXCITED! Cannot wait to meet Kak Suraya for selection and measurements. I can't wait to meet my mak andam too!!! I asked for a change of mak andam. I initailly chose Lily to be my mak andam but now I am asking for Lynn Salleh instead. That's because I LOVE HER MAKEUP and she's my colleague's wife. So I feel a bit safe with her? But I love Lily's makeup too! If I can't get Lynn Salleh, I'll stick to Lily!

 Makeup by Lily

Makeup by Lynn Salleh

I am very particular about eyebrows. When I was choosing my mak andam dulu, I always scrutinise the pengantin's eyebrows. Eyebrows frame the face and I like it just nice- not too thick and not too thin. If gradient eyebrows lagi I like~ Macam Pala Foxxia. Tapi dia bukan mak andam ye hahahahahaha.

Anyway, I am panicking because I have not hit my targeted weight! I lost weight but it's not enough and I think I need to lose more. I have to admit that I am more obsessed with losing weight rather than the details of my wedding. I've been on a diet since January and been seeing improvements but I am still not satisfied. The upcoming bridal fitting lagi makes me kancheong.

Gonna try another diet and I hope I am able to commit. That topic...in another entry.